Today has been a mentally difficult day. I've had a lot of things on my mind lately, and most of those things are centered around making some big decisions in my life. I'm a terrible decision-maker. And while I know I made the right decision to get divorced, some days I really miss having someone else in my life to help me work through those decisions. Someone to help weigh the pros and cons, and to discuss every aspect of that looming "thing." It's easy being a team. It's much more difficult to tackle it alone. Whatever "it" is. Usually I don't let days like this get me down for too long. There's no point in being a Sad Sally and dwelling on things out of my control. BUT. Today is tough. And I blame the weather. Let me just take a second or two to vent.HOLY SH*#! IT'S MOTHER-F***ING COLD OUTSIDE!!!! EFF YOU, ALASKA! EFF. YOU.
*sigh* Now that that's done...
Seriously. It's hard to get rid of Sad Sally when every time I walk outside I'm accosted by 40 mph wind gusts that blow stinging snow directly into my eyes and face. It's so cold that it hurts. Literally hurts. See that temperature up there? 14 degrees? That's not so bad, really. I can handle the teens and single digits. It's the -14 degree windchill that sucks that life out of me. How on earth is it possible for WIND to change the temperature by almost 25 degrees?! And this, my friends, is when my badassery ends. I will not run outside in this. Won't. You could probably even threaten my life, and I'd still say I'm staying inside today.
All I can say is this: Thank the heavens above for P90X and Tony Horton. Because Sad Sally needs an ass-kicking and she sure as hell isn't going to get it from running. Not today.
And also, thank you all for letting me vent and have a bit of a bitch-fest today. I needed it. And I already feel better. And I know I'll feel even better when I'm done with Tony and the gang. I promise that my next post will be joyful and upbeat and optimistic. Why? Because of some 2012 racing plans in the works...and I can't wait to tell you all about them. :)
Sending you a BIG virtual hug from Michigan!!!
ReplyDeleteSpeaking of which, I could send you more than that if I had your new address. Send it to me will you?
P.S. I think the second year in a new place is harder than the first. The first year everything is new and part of the experience, the second year you know what to expect and it's not as fun.
Okay, reading this got me out the door! Damnit..... I can't complain about wind when there is sunshine.....
ReplyDeletehaha just came across your blog.. like your style and def feel the same way, freezing in DC! taking up boxing tonight to get me out of a funk!
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