Pity party...over.

I'm over it. My personal pity party, that is. I've learned a lot of things about myself and how my mind works this past week. As you all heard, my husband is in Las Vegas for 8 weeks to work as a physical therapist intern at a local hospital. Las Vegas to St. Augustine = 2,252 miles away from my love. For 8 weeks.

I'm not going to lie and say I've been handling it well. I haven't. In one hour he'll have been gone for exactly one week, but let me tell you, it's felt a lot longer than that. I've done a whole lot of sleeping, eating, not working out, and watching movies.

Lesson #1 I've learned about myself: I am an emotional eater. I'm too embarrassed to mention what I've eaten within the course of one week. To sum it all up in three words: junk and carbs. I think I've always known that I'm an emotional eater. That's why I was always a bit on the chunky side growing up. I lost that extra poundage when I got to college and became a lot more aware about what I was putting in my mouth. Plus, if I ate a lot of crap, my roommates would've noticed, and that would've been embarrassing, yeah? But here I've been for a week, all alone, with no one to notice all of my bad eating habits except for my dog (which I'd venture to guess he's been enjoying because he gets a taste of whatever I eat...lucky dog). But this time, I noticed my emotional eating habits. And they're BAD.

Lesson #2 I've learned about myself: I need good vibes to want to run. Most people are probably opposite. I've heard a lot of people say they run to work off aggression or sadness or whatever. Not me. If I'm feeling sad or hurt or angry, I don't want to run. In fact, if I do run when I'm feeling that way my run always, without fail, sucks with a capital S. My energy is non-existent because it's too wrapped up in what I'm thinking about. It can't focus on the task at hand, which is running.

Lesson #3 I've learned about myself: When most people would run to work out their feelings, I sleep. And I sleep a long time. Sleep is my escape. Because when I'm sleeping I don't have to think about how sad I am, or how angry I am, or how hurt I am, or how (insert emotion here) I am.

Lesson #4 I've learned about myself: I can only watch so many movies before I want to shoot my eye out.

Lesson #5 I've learned about myself: I can fix a broken toilet all by myself. (Triumph!!!! *raises arms in air*)

Lesson #6 I've learned about myself: I appreciate my dog more than he'll ever know. Dogs really do have a sixth sense, I swear. He knows when I need comforting. He knows when I need to be alone.

But that's it. It's been a week, and I'm sick of being lazy, and feeling sorry for myself, and crying. After all, it is only 8 weeks. It's not like he's gone forever. Two months compared to forever is relatively small, wouldn't you say? I agree.

I did manage to get in a 7 mile run on Saturday, a 3 mile run yesterday, and a 5 mile run today. After all, I do have a 15K coming up on Saturday. No more slacking because I want to kick this 15K in the ass and show it who's boss. As in, "I'm going to slaughter my old PR" kind of boss. And that, my friends, is definitely something to look forward to. Plus (and this is a big plus), my good bloggy friend Morgan will be driving up from Orlando to run the race with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Annnnnnnd. And. (See, life isn't so terrible...) I'm going on a cruise this weekend! After I run the race this weekend I have to quickly get ready to hop on a plane to Miami. Because for 7 days me and 5 of my old sorority girl friends are cruising the Caribbean. We'll be making stops in the Bahamas, St. Thomas, Puerto Rico, and Grand Turk. Warm weather, white sand beaches...yes, please.

So, my pity party is officially over. Finito. But, there are some things I have planned to combat those ugly lessons I learned about myself. That's a whole different post, though, so stay tuned for that tomorrow or Thursday.

By the way, the Accountability Challenge is still on. Here's my weekly schedule (2 days late, but whatevs):

Monday: 3 mile run + yoga (done and done)
Tuesday: 5 mile run (done)
Wednesday: 4 mile + strength
Thursday: 2 mile run + strength
Friday: Rest
Saturday: Gate River Run 15K
Weekly goal: No more self pity!